Turning A New Leaf

Being both Mother and Wife I tend to place everyone before myself, most of us do, however I have taken this to a greater extent than I had even realized. 

I make sure that my "boys" eat all the right things for their bodies to maintain all the essential vitamins and minerals, actually I take great pride in this. I make sure my clients have their menus and all the necessary recipes to get through their week. I answer emails from worried Moms wondering if their child is getting all they need, I reassure them and give all the advice and love I have stored in my being. I shop mindfully getting the best possible foods at the best possible prices. I am always so careful at providing my friends and family with the tools and knowledge of eating raw and vegan making sure they are eating all the right things.

Then there is ME, what about ME? Last week I realized I was not doing any of this for myself. It was Sunday afternoon when I almost passed out, falling off the ladder while we were out doing a painting job. I was dizzy, my head felt as if it weighted about 50 pounds, I felt as if I could barely hold it up. I was feeling sicker than I had been for years. The fact of the matter is I had not been feeling well for the last two weeks, I was not listening to my body, like there was a wall up and I was ignoring everything it was trying to yell at me. I was just too wrapped up in everyone else and their lives to pay any attention to my own being.

I never place myself first, well not until I realized I was doing this to myself. Now the past two days it is all about ME, ME, ME! I am maintaining a great deal of mindfulness with myself, I am eating - strange concept right? Yea we need food to survive, Imagine I need to eat! I did not knowingly do this to myself it just happened. I have been under a great deal of stress during the past 9 months, and that was how I was handling it. I ignore stress but when it comes right down to it, it does not ignore you, it is there no matter how a person handles it. Stress will not go away unless it is dealt with. This stress is like sandpaper being rubbed onto my body, eating away all the good stuff leaving me feel tired and sickly.

As many of you know I have been fasting through most of this difficult time in our lives, I love to fast, it is rejuvenating and healing for both your body and soul. I have healed my body from dis-ease and toxins by fasting. My body, I believe is truly clean. A bit too clean infact. I believe I have stripped all the necessary vitamins and minerals essential for a healthy body from myself. When I go back and think about it for a wee minute I was fasting so that my "boys" could eat properly as there was just not enough money to go around for food. I did not eat, I choose to fast because my body was accustomed to it and I enjoyed a good fast anyway, it would be easy right? It was easy, fasting always is for me. It made me feel good in many ways and my guys were eating away all the money. Sounds terrible EH? Well in my mind's eye it was not, It was me - the Mom and Wife - taking care of her tribe, this is what we do. Taking care of others before we care for ourselves.

When my Hippie decided it was time for him to do a Green Smoothie Cleanse a few weeks ago and I reluctantly agreed, I realized that while I was beginning to drink a full glass of nutrition once again my body was actually crying for it, I could not get enough of them and normally I can not go for long drinking the Green Goddess, they are too filling for me. Not this time, I went 14 full days of drinking Green Smoothies, which is unheard of for me. My body could not stop and now that I am back to feeding my body properly I am slowly beginning to feel like I am being lifted from the fog that I have been in. I am mindfully feeding myself as I do the others in my life, just the way it is soppose to be. I am getting stronger, my head is feeling lighter... I still am not well, but I am getting much better than I was a week ago.

Infact a week ago I emailed my Sister Aleesha and told her that I believed my Thyroid Cancer was back with a vengence. I was feeling that ill. She immediately send me Reiki, started a healing circle for me and cleared my Chakras. It is amazing when your energy becomes blocked how unsettling it becomes for your person, as soon as she cleared my essential energy centers I was immediately feeling better, in that moment I knew my cancer was NOT back, and that thought was just something my mind went to because I was frightend, it is just what happens. Living in the present moment as I do, I found it amazing my mind went there to the past as fast as it did. Scary!

So all you Moms out there in the world remember how extremely important it is to take care of YOU! You cannot take of others if you become ill. You have to become the most important person in your life in order for you to take care of all the other importamt people in your life. Take it from me, just do it!

I will be posting what I eat each day just to keep it real and so that I may keep track of what I am eating. Please send in your comments on my choices and feel free to give ME advice on my food choices.

My Menu for today:

Green Smoothie - (1qt) Collards, spirulina, banana, hemp oil with steeped green tea rather than water.

Mixed greens salad, (huge) cranberry pear sauce on the top and kelp powder - Who knew that eating could be this wonderful!

Chlorella

Hemp milk - I had forgotten how great this tastes!

Celery boats with tahini with Alex

Jungle juice - 2 bunches of parsley and 3 green apples. (My favorite juice)

Fresh Aloe Juice with liquid chloraphyll

That was it for today. A great start f you are to ask me! I will try to get more into me tomorrow. I am full and have no desire to have a snack. Well maybe later as I am not ready for bed yet!

Raw Love ~ Melissa